I’m going to close down this blog. I haven’t written a post in several months, not counting the repost back in August following Robin Williams passing.
But my reason for closing the blog is that I no longer need it. For a few months now, and in particular the past 4-8 weeks, my various mental/emotional/psychological health struggles have been nary an issue. Well, I should really say nary. But things have been much, much better.
The biggest change is that I am, and feel, much more in control of my own thoughts and feelings. Of course I still have unpleasant thoughts and feelings come up; everyone does. And I still sometimes get caught to dwelling on the past or the future. But if that happens I am much quicker at catching it and stopping it; usually within a couple of minutes or less of ruminating.
I am, especially, more in touch with my heart and following it. I have been pursuing my language interest and passion for some time now, even taking it more seriously. I have stopped my psych meds, which has in turn given me my natural (read: born-with) brain chemistry back.
And when I struggle with negative emotions or thoughts, I am able to handle them. I have the ability and tools to help, including the support of friends and family.
All in all, I feel quite good! Because these are recent developments, I am working hard to protect and foster this growth. But I don’t feel the need for this blog, which was created and used during a time of great struggle.
If you like my writings, or writing style, and are interested in learning about language/linguistics related things, check out my other blog, Language is Life. I may also write the occasional personal post on there.
If you’ve been keeping up with this blog, I thank you very much for reading the vagaries that I wrote. I hope in some way it helped you on your journey through life.